WELCOME TO MY MIXTAPE

I just can't begin to let you know just what I'm feeling
Now that the red ones help me fly and the blue one help me fall...

i believe i can see the future,
cause I repeat the same routine.
i think I used to have a purpose,
then again, that might have been a dream.

i think i used to have a vo ice,
now i never make a sound.
i just do what i've been told,
i really don't want them to come around, oh no...
...
everyday is exactly the same,
there is no love here, and there is no pain...
every day is exactly the same
...i can't remember how this got started,
but I can tell you exactly how it will end

You're keeping in step
In the line
Got your chin held high and you feel just fine
Cause you do

What you're told
now i never make a sound.
i just do what i've been told,
But inside your heart it is black and it's hollow and it's cold
...

Staring out my cradle as my eyes take in, the baby speak of my braindead kin

Don't be alarmed, I have to lie
Take everything and keep it in stride.
I know I'm sick and I'm not right.

I'm so f*cking tired of living this life.
I made for myself, I'm sorry that I
Cannot get past what keeps me away from the light.

I hope this explains my problem to you,
Cause I feel like this every night.

trapped under ice,
comfortably cold,
i've gone as low as you can go.

feel no remorse,
no sense of shame,
time's gonna wash away all pain.

i made a god
out of blood,
not superiority.
i killed the king of deceit,
now i sleep in anarchy.

This one last bullet you mention
Is my one last shot at redemption
'Cause I know to live you must give your life away

'cause you put me out

the butt of your sick joke
into this ashtray life
as you come and go
'cause I forgot to service you
and we broke down

Jumping to conclusions
Made me fall away from you
I'm so glad that the truth
Has brought back together me and you

I'm tired, and I felt it for a while now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old, it's
Four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming

This world rejects me
This world threw me away
This world never gave me a chance
This world's gonna have to pay

In all the years I've been struggling
I've been haunted at every turn
I fight the fear as I'm growing old
And remember in all that I've learned that we build and burn

What else should I be?
What else could I say?
Everyone is gay
What else could I write?
I don't have the right

So don't apologize (I hope you choke and die!)
Search your cell for something with which to hang yourself
They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven
But they don't tell you what to say
When your whole life has gone to hell

This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?

Head like a hole, black as your soul
I'd rather die than give you control
Head like a hole, black as your soul
I'd rather die than give you control

Perfect little dream the kind that hurts the most
Forgot how it feels well almost
No one to blame always the same
Open my eyes wake up in flames
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me realize?
It took you to make me see the light

Smashed up my sanity
Smashed up my integrity
Smashed up what I believed in
Smashed up what's left of me
Smashed up my everything
Smashed up all that was true
Gonna smash myself to pieces
I don't know what else to do
Covered in hope and Vaseline
Still cannot fix this broken machine
Watching the hole it used to be mine
Just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline
Of the trust I will betray
Give it to me I throw it away
After everything I've done I hate myself for what I've become
I tried
I gave up
Throw it away

We're sick of your treason
Sick of your lies
Fuck no, we won't listen
We're gonna open your eyes

Seether is neither big nor small
Seether is the center of it all
I tried to rock her in my cradle
I tried to knock her out
I tried to cram her back in my mouth, yeah
Can't fight the seether

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase...